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Things Change

There has been quite a few changes that happened in the last two weeks. I have withdrawn from my school program, gotten a job (finally and response from all those applications I put in), new financial goals, and my husband is going today to get PRK corrective eye surgery.

I was looking forward to some downtime to readjust after everything that happened at the school and to detox from it but two days before I was finished, I got a call for a position. I am really happy that I finally got a job. It was a surprise that it immediately followed me getting out of school. I have decided, because of the circumstance, that I will pursue the certifications to become a personal trainer on my own and save myself the wasted time at the school.

I am enjoying having a job. It is an easy job and can be redundant however, its money and experience. It also allows us to get in a better place financially faster. Shortly after the New Year, David and I decided to do Dave Ramsey’s Money Makeover. We have already taken steps and are still excited about it. I know it will be hard, nothing worth it is easy, but we will be so happy and debt-free finally. As part of our debt-free journey we sold our 2011 Nissan Rogue this past weekend. I really liked the car and will miss the convience of having 2 vehicles that will hold the whole family but will not miss the monthly payments.

Today David goes to get PRK. He is really excited and really nervous. Having this surgery he would no longer need glasses or contacts, something he is really happy about.., but it is a surgery and with any surgery there are risks and those make him nervous. I can understand his excitement and reservations. I was in his place last April and he was there to reassure me. I just wish I can do the same for him.

It has been a few days since I wrote the above. David has been doing well after his surgery though it seems that last night and today, the worst has finally hit. The excruciating pain that was mentioned came upon him last night. He told me that he didn’t sleep last night because he was up with the pain. I cannot imagine that. He is currently sleeping and I hope that he can get enough rest in today. I am a little worried to leave him and the kids tonight as I have to work.

I don’t know what else to write. I ahve a few things going through my mind and I think they would do better as separate posts than a mesh in one. Until next time!



I’m Busy……





I feel know I start most posts with: “I know it’s been a while” or some lame thing like that. So, I am going to try not to do that. So, this is what I have been doing/going through:


I feel as though I haven’t been able to catch my breath in months.

I haven’t read more than one book in 2-3 months.


I have started school in pursuit of becoming a personal fitness trainer.

I have struggled with new knowledge of tracking your health by clothing size and the number the scale says is not the best. ( I will have to devote a post solely on that topic)

I have had many moments of panic, thanks to my hubby’s work, on trying to find last-minute child care for my kids. 

I have started putting out resumes and looking for a job in a gym so 1) I can gain work experience and 2) we really need some extra income.

I did a couple of weeks interning at a boot camp place. It was really nice.

I switched from day classes to night classes. Which, on its own, is a hard adjustment.

My class this term (kinesiology) is really kicking my butt and we are only a week in.

I don’t get to see my kids and husband at all some days.

Oh, and we barely made it through the holidays. Mainly because I have been so busy with school that I have not been ready for it. They all sneaked up on me this last year.


I have felt so overwhelmed and stressed with all of this. I cannot prevent getting in distress because I cannot tell what my signs are of it coming on. The base offers a free stress management workshop that I have signed up for in hopes it can help me. Being stressed does no good for me or my family. I have spent random days/times just crying for an hour or more. Not good! I do not like it.

I have tendency to let myself freak out over stuff that hasn’t happened or that I feel I cannot accomplish. Most recently, I have been offered a job as  personal fitness trainer, I am freaking out because I am already thinking of all the reasons I cannot do it. I know I have lots of learning, I am continually asking questions and learning what I can, I have everyone else telling me I can do this, and I am the only one telling myself why I cannot succeed before I even try. I am setting myself up defeat before I have really made an effort. I am constantly battling this with the job and school. I do not know why I do this. Sometimes I fall for it and give up or quit….., other times I get determined and make myself do it. I never know which one is going to happen. I am trying to fight it now.

I fully intended to start post everyday or at least several times a week, then an avalanche fell. I want to reach out to people, even if it is through my journey and struggles. But, how can I if I cannot find time to post it out there? Or have the courage to just write my struggles without fear of being judged, laughed at, made fun of, or criticized. I know some people will not understand or they will judge, I cannot help that, but I do not want it to stop me if I can reach those who need to hear that I have been there or I am going through it, too. 

I do not want my fears and “what ifs” to hold me back. If we all did that, we wouldn’t have some of the most wonderful ideas, books, stories, movies, and many other things that we do if those people let their fears hold them back. Right?


Now that it is the New Year, I know that there are resolutions that have been made and are being made. Mine is just simply going to be:




What are your resolutions or changes you are striving to make this year?